The Horse Girl in Me Isn’t Dead Yet

 Another week has passed. And I am sick again. With a cold that just won’t die. I’m on day 7 and feeling better but still just feel crummy. Sometimes I still cough so much I vomit.

picture evidence i am keeping some plants alive currently

In other news, I have committed to buying a saddle the saddle fitter found for me. It was a demo saddle so I’m getting a few hundred off the price but this saddle fitter is slow moving. Now that I have decided to buy the saddle I want it now.

back when the saddle fitter came and it was decided current saddle did not work :(

I still have all sorts of excitement/anger/joy/frustration that I am buying a depreciating asset (saddle) for a hobby I hardly ever get to do (ride my horse).

It’s just quite frustrating.

And it’s one of those things that I just feel like giving up, it’s like I have a moment of yes I can do this, I can squeeze riding in but the reality is that I have a toddler alone and we’ve been in a heat wave these last few weeks. My motivation is shot.

playing in the mud is fun. he keeps it watered to make sure he has enough mud . so cute hehe

On the weekend SO doesn't just say , go have yourself a ride. I always just have to say im going for a ride. And my toddler loves to do everything with me so i have to sneak out. I did stick my toddler on murphy last weekend and he LOVED it. I immediately had to hustle toddler inside because his allergies are still really bad with horses.

I so want to buy him a pony so he can ride with me but we are several years away from this as long as his allergies get better.

i know im going to miss these days of him being little SO MUCH.

I am salty and excited about buying the saddle. Too scared to hope I’ll actually get more riding time in but a piece of my soul will die If I were to just completely give up horses/horseback riding.

Anyway, I hope your world is feeling a little more fun and fulfilling right now.